homesick?

i have no idea how i can ever be homesick when I'm so used to be here.
but i feel like going home. just for a while.

i hate doing things by myself. i hate feeling abandoned.
i hate being alone at home. i hate going to places alone. i even hate driving alone.

in conclusion, i hate being alone.

as much as i complain about my sister disturbing me in indo, i actually like her company sometime. i hate feeling like im the only child.

i miss family dinners
i miss my dad forcing me to go out with him.
i miss my home.
i miss the things i used to do.
i miss being able to make people accompany me.

i know im such a hassle because i dont like to be alone.
i can't help it.
i feel like im constantly alone although i spend almost my whole day with either daryl or friends, at the end of the day, im still alone.

and now everyone is busy with their own thing, including me. i feel even more alone.

haih~

or maybe i just miss my mum :(